13th of October

Blurred sentiments
Are left in bitter rambles
Of my feeble thoughts
And futile recalls
I mustered through this self-administered
Abuse of my body.

It weeps, as
It wails in front of walls
Painted red
And shades of purple flesh eat
Its enamel of cheerless yellow.

And you alight from your makeshift bliss.

A disclosure of obscurity in your smile
As you watch me in wretched agony
You laugh, you cry
Wanting to yield every inch
Of mordant love.

I would have none of it.

And as you pour hate,
I drink every drop of it.
I look up to your mocking gaze,
And accept in utter silence.

Hatred painted the picture for me.

Now, I have none
But a soul vandalized with burning guilt
And filths of anguish.
The dark, deafening abyss awaits,
As I torment my spirit
With these uninviting shotgun shells.

My apologies.

hayan.isa sa mga english poems ko nung 2002 ko pa yata to nagawa.la lang.hopya layk it.